While I have a fair number of acquaintances, a lot of people have decided to excommunicate me from their lives. Some people think everything I do or say is creepy. What the living fuck? What am I supposed to do? And why do I care so much what people think?
T. said a while back that I put out really weird vibes:
Me: I'm no longer beating myself up that I don't have a girl (liar!), but it's kind of a bummer, really
T: relax and it will proably happen
you send all the wrong vibes
i can't explain
Me: oh here we go again (yeah, I still think this stuff is bullshit)
T: ok i'll stop
Me: no, say what you need to say
T: well I can't, because I actually can't explain. All I can say is act like you don't care.
Me: I am the "common denominator"; it likely is me
T: it is you
Me: But I do care, so that's bullshit. I'm not playing this cultural game.
T: but it is critical
really
look there are studies.... send a guy to a bar alone, and he gets x women interested. send him to a bar with two beautiful women and he gets 7x women interested
it's biological....
Me: I understand that. If two women have bought in, that's a good sign. Also the women might have a moderating effect on his behaviour.
T: all that
its the buying in thing
they serve as confirmation that he's quality stuff
Me: That has nothing to do with admitting that I'm interested in meeting women!
T: you act single, and that will never get you a date
you have to look really halfhearted
then women will fall over themselves to get to you
look, you're probably attracted to young women with curves, not old wrinkly post-menopausal ones
Me: Well, a few people at Sainte-Anne thought I had a girlfriend and were surprised that I didn't.
T: and feminine looking rather than masculine looking ones
Me: And I'm not advertising, "I don't have a girlfriend."
Me: Yes, I am. (interested in those kinds of women)
T: your attraction is an unconsciously biologically mandated thing. for women, its about your status in the male dominance heirarchy
T: gah, you ruined it!
T: you told them you were single!
Me: Gee, I dunno, 'cause it was the truth?
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I dunno. I just don't know.
Here's what brought this on:
"Oh my fuck, Will. My detector for 'creepy' just went off the charts just now. I didn't even know it was possible to reply to posts on the things of Facebook friend-of-friends."
Funny, she's a woman not unlike T.
My message to a friend in another class:
"I'm kind of bummed out - I feel like everything I do, that girl concludes is creepy. Short story: I asked her out and she wasn't interested. Her response to my asking was a shudder like I'd asked her to eat her own shit. I haven't persisted on that but we're fundamentally not getting along. Anyway, I've "unsubscribed" to her, so this should be less likely to happen again.
"haha yeah, but I saw the post because she commented on it. That was the 'creepy' part. I kind of was trying to impress her. It was an epic fail.
"I seriously hate this class. The other one was so much better, imperfections and all."
Well, it's a learning experience, that's for sure.
T. said a while back that I put out really weird vibes:
Me: I'm no longer beating myself up that I don't have a girl (liar!), but it's kind of a bummer, really
T: relax and it will proably happen
you send all the wrong vibes
i can't explain
Me: oh here we go again (yeah, I still think this stuff is bullshit)
T: ok i'll stop
Me: no, say what you need to say
T: well I can't, because I actually can't explain. All I can say is act like you don't care.
Me: I am the "common denominator"; it likely is me
T: it is you
Me: But I do care, so that's bullshit. I'm not playing this cultural game.
T: but it is critical
really
look there are studies.... send a guy to a bar alone, and he gets x women interested. send him to a bar with two beautiful women and he gets 7x women interested
it's biological....
Me: I understand that. If two women have bought in, that's a good sign. Also the women might have a moderating effect on his behaviour.
T: all that
its the buying in thing
they serve as confirmation that he's quality stuff
Me: That has nothing to do with admitting that I'm interested in meeting women!
T: you act single, and that will never get you a date
you have to look really halfhearted
then women will fall over themselves to get to you
look, you're probably attracted to young women with curves, not old wrinkly post-menopausal ones
Me: Well, a few people at Sainte-Anne thought I had a girlfriend and were surprised that I didn't.
T: and feminine looking rather than masculine looking ones
Me: And I'm not advertising, "I don't have a girlfriend."
Me: Yes, I am. (interested in those kinds of women)
T: your attraction is an unconsciously biologically mandated thing. for women, its about your status in the male dominance heirarchy
T: gah, you ruined it!
T: you told them you were single!
Me: Gee, I dunno, 'cause it was the truth?
***************
I dunno. I just don't know.
Here's what brought this on:
"Oh my fuck, Will. My detector for 'creepy' just went off the charts just now. I didn't even know it was possible to reply to posts on the things of Facebook friend-of-friends."
Funny, she's a woman not unlike T.
My message to a friend in another class:
"I'm kind of bummed out - I feel like everything I do, that girl concludes is creepy. Short story: I asked her out and she wasn't interested. Her response to my asking was a shudder like I'd asked her to eat her own shit. I haven't persisted on that but we're fundamentally not getting along. Anyway, I've "unsubscribed" to her, so this should be less likely to happen again.
"haha yeah, but I saw the post because she commented on it. That was the 'creepy' part. I kind of was trying to impress her. It was an epic fail.
"I seriously hate this class. The other one was so much better, imperfections and all."
Well, it's a learning experience, that's for sure.